.people don’t get how much i want to give up. I’m not joking when i say i want to die. I’m so tired. My faith shattered. My soul cries for it all to end. The pain everyday i feel pain my soul is crying begging.
My head fills with bad thoughts. My head tells me to just make it stop.
I’m so scared….i want to live…i want to love….i want to feel emotions i haven’t felt in a long time..
I want a long hug from someone them letting me cry it all out. But noone knows what’s going on in my head. How bad i got….how close it is for me to just end it all.
I’m at the end of the line now….the very tip and i dont know if i could hold on any longer.
I want someone to see right through my fake laughter and painful smile. I hide myself so well i blame myself for it….i blame myself for everything. I’m so sorry mom dad…